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dear blog, i've been breaking down these days.
sad memories keep flashing across my mind.
the old scars on my wrist starts getting itchy,
numbness is spreading all over my body.
bloodly images keep appearing infront of me.
i can feel the sorrows back then.
same numbness same feeling that happens to me.
when i look at my palms, the only thing i can see,
is bloody stains all over it. no matter how i wash or rub,
it just won't come out, it stays there for a very long time.

am i sick? i guess so. somehow remembering what i've done.
things i've done when i feel sad. those feelings.
are making me feel like doing it right now.
sometimes i ask myself, what for i keep promises to others?
i can just break them if i want to..but why didn't i?
becox i love them? well what's love? i've no idea..
ever since THAT day, where i lost my smile, duno what's love anymore.
they're fake to me. on the surface, i might look happy whereva i go.
but deep down, everything was a lie. u can seldom see my natural smile.
cox i hide it, there's no need to show cox u'll surely loose everything one day.
life is filled with sorrows, so why happy? why smile?
everything is just wrong, who cares? you can just break anyone's heart.
and they do the same to you.. i dun want to care about other's feeling anymore.
i'm sick and tired of it, really.